Friday, February 9, 2007
finally, i've started to listen to some happier songs. although they are still linkin parks's raps and stuff like that...its a big achievement already:) hahahas. feeling quite ok now, sad, but ok. the day started off pretty average, with rachel being moody and all, and of course with chloe sleeping and drooling on the desk, again. there are a few little perks todayy like seeing all the grey badge seniors come back, so sad, but so sweet. they were like being so enthusiastic during assembly and all, so touched:)
and there's something else that i shant sayy. my feelings are like a roller coaster ride, sometimes up and sometime down. the extremes of my personality. seeing the seniors again gives me this sense of warm, but everything darken again when you realise you're not gonna see them again after today. there's no point getting so hyped up for just this brief moment. its best not to expect at all, cause the bigger your hopes are, the greater the despair when you cant have it. after all, what could i expect at all?
hurrayyys. the song playing now is razorblade kiss by HIM:) so its a emo song again. again.
stupid rachel.
" i was looking for you on msn, then i saw 'lies they are all lies' and i knew it must be xiaoyu. so emo."
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