Saturday, December 30, 2006
ha. you thought you knew her, trusted her even more than yourself, never doubt whatever bullshit she said, and she turned out to be something else.
hi there honey, how many faceless layers of masks do you have on under that one?
no, im not pissed. more like sad, devastated, broken. its been two years at least, there are very deep feelings. and i do value relationships alot, honey, unlike you.
*laugh. jocelyn keep repeating this silly line from a movie to me. and now it popped up, seems to fit the feeling.
when the world turn the back on you, you turn the back on the world. yeah something like that.
did she change? or was this her true self all along? or were we just too blind to see it, till now?
and what choice is there left? try to talk her around?
what could she do? just dao them and pretend she has never been like that? but why? did it matter so much to you? is it all you have ever been trying to achieve? and you would go to all cost for it, that we wouldnt matter anymore...
so you finally realise the lie, and wonder how many more were there? everything she told you...was it just a fraud.
but its ok. not that it has never happen before. just that, it had hurt lesser.
well, at least we are in separate classes next year. what you dont see doesnt hurt you.
im turning my back on her, but its not my fault. at least, i tried, and thats all that matters.
im sorry as well.
10:44 AM
