Saturday, December 30, 2006
haha. i dont easily find guys very cute or even hot. but there's an exception.
he's hot and cute and really pro. pro not in the sense of studies, but video games! specifically drums:D
chloe took us to this arcade somewhere in dhoby ghaut mrt and the whole place was so bloody noisy. oh what the freak.
he was quite prominent, cause a whole bunch of people were gathered around to watch him play. so we stopped to see whats going on too.
okay okay i know my reaction is like a whole lot slower than normal people's so it took me some time to actually realise what the game is actually all about. and wow, the game is cool, the guy playin it is even cooler!
but hey. i dont mean that kind of typical singaporean guys who like to act cool, spike their hair up, act and talk like bengs, and always noticing if there's anyone checking them out. typical, you find a bunch of them anywhere, they are overpopulated.
but he was so
i dont give a damn, i just care about my game. cool.
and somehow i feel like he has a sad past too...
sad:( i dont even know his freaking name. and i definitely wont go back to zone X to find him, im not a freaking stalker.
11:04 AM
ha. you thought you knew her, trusted her even more than yourself, never doubt whatever bullshit she said, and she turned out to be something else.
hi there honey, how many faceless layers of masks do you have on under that one?
no, im not pissed. more like sad, devastated, broken. its been two years at least, there are very deep feelings. and i do value relationships alot, honey, unlike you.
*laugh. jocelyn keep repeating this silly line from a movie to me. and now it popped up, seems to fit the feeling.
when the world turn the back on you, you turn the back on the world. yeah something like that.
did she change? or was this her true self all along? or were we just too blind to see it, till now?
and what choice is there left? try to talk her around?
what could she do? just dao them and pretend she has never been like that? but why? did it matter so much to you? is it all you have ever been trying to achieve? and you would go to all cost for it, that we wouldnt matter anymore...
so you finally realise the lie, and wonder how many more were there? everything she told you...was it just a fraud.
but its ok. not that it has never happen before. just that, it had hurt lesser.
well, at least we are in separate classes next year. what you dont see doesnt hurt you.
im turning my back on her, but its not my fault. at least, i tried, and thats all that matters.
im sorry as well.
10:44 AM
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
okay okay. im awake so god damn early because i wanna check my class placement. but the bloody thing is not there yet. argh. what a waste of precious sleep. so i decided not to waste the time stoning there but to do something for the shop. yay. we finally made some process but to tell the truth, its all chloe and peiyun behind it. i didnt contribute much. ahwells. im not as com savvy as chloe so it took me such a bloody long time to edit the pics and do the serial code and stuff. but ta-daaa! im done.
8:32 AM
Monday, December 25, 2006
haha i always use some stupid emo blogskin that makes people depress just by looking at it. so isnt this much better? ah but i know this one is not gonna last very long either. so whats the point? just to feel the thrill of eploring something new, only to lose the excitement three seconds later. seriously, so whats the point. im so frigging pathetic. and im sorry
im sorry ok? i irritate others by being this way, and i irritate myself too. ahh i dont make sense at all. no one reading my blog would realise what the hell am i crapping about. but its not about putting on a show for others isnt it? but rather just writing what you feel. well thats what i think anyway.
haha its really ironic. how
rock music actually calms you. i thought its suppose you get you high? and reckless? heck.
i hate my mom. hahaha sounds so freaking childish. but honestly, im
am childish. thats why i always say things like this. i suppose no one would take me seriously anymore right?
sorry mom. but im not a 5 year old toddler anymore. you need to
let me go. its rare that i talk about my mom in such a positive light. i usually...lets not talk about that. but...she's not that bad if you really judge her fairly. only irritating and a control freak, and prehistoric. thats all.
i like skaterboy. call me immature, but i like it anyway:)
12:07 PM
